I HAVE A FAT MIND

I have been so down lately and discouraged about this whole business. I have contemplated removing this blog; but then I thought, 'no...THIS is part of the training'... The competition is nearly over.. but it won't be time to remove the blog. Because then the training will continue. Training to continue to lose. Training to keep it off.

So...fat mind.. what is that all about? Well, I have a had a very hard week. I have been down and depressed. I have more or less quit the competition. I'm not working out anymore. I HAVE been trying to eat 1/2 way decently. My MIND has weighed me down though. It hit me last night - WHAT AM I DOWN ABOUT? I had the guts to sign up for the competition. I lost 25 pounds. I have kept them off. What's the problem?? I think I'm just too damned hard on myself. I wanted to win. I wanted to lose 50 pounds. But I AM NOT SUPERWOMAN. I am just a regular old girl who works two jobs, is in school, is trying to be an adult while living with her parents, and who is trying to keep a long-distance relationship thriving. I have LOT on my plate and have really done WELL. SO... I need to lose my fat mind QUICK. It needs to be encouraging and light-hearted, recognizing the truth, being POSITIVE.

I have done good things. The best thing is that I KEEP TRYING. Yes, I fail. Or better yet, I pause. I have never completely quit. Completely qutting is saying, "This is it. I am fat I always will be and i just don't care anymore. I'm gonna be as big as a house. I don't care". I have never said that and never will.

I must love myself and encourage myself. Hold my head up high! Be confident and brave. Keep trying and keep trying and keep trying. Walk this marathon, babygirl...no matter how long it takes...

Traci...with the formerly fat mind...