DAY 68

It has continued to be a struggle, mentally more so than physically. I have had such encouragement, though, from my friends, my teammates and my sweet SAM. I have thought seriously about what my motivators are; why do I want this? I'm trying to keep those things in my mind and focus on them.

Thanks to my precious friend, I've realized that I'm too hard on myself. She stated, "the perfection police aren't coming today!"... I loved that. I tend to be REALLY into ONE thing... I sucked at my schooling/studying a few weeks ago, but was working out like a maniac. Now I am studying 2-4 hours a day, but sucking at working out. Is there NO balance? !?!? SAM ingeniously stated, "have you ever thought about taking it slow and just easing into it?" Ha... I didn't know how to respond to that. I have no clue how to do that! I guess this is a great lesson for me to learn.

I'm really trying to be gracious to myself; I can be so kind to others and quite gracious at times. Why is it so hard to afford myself the same things??? I am starting anew. I have joined Weight Watchers online and have stopped doing the radical diet that I was doing. Sure I was losing fast, but it's not realistic to eat that way forever. WW is pretty practical.

I have 2 weeks left. I am going to try to rise above and give it all I have for the next two weeks. Then I will progress at a slower pace. My goal for the next year is to lose 10 pounds a month, to be down 110 pounds by my next birthday. Ten pounds a month is not much to ask for; if I apply myself.

Train on friends... Here's to second chances... or third, or fourth...

:)

Traci